is it hot in here?

Or is it just the hotness?
There are no words...

from tonight's show in West Palm Beach, FL
edited to add:
I get that its a wife beater. But its so damn sexy!

disney precious moments

There is a new line of Precious Moments (oh, I collect them in case you didn't know.) that are Disney characters and Disney inspired. These are the two I want:
They are all beautiful. Gotta love it. Two of my favorite things in one. Neat.

song in my head 08/07/07

...besides the hilarious song in the post below


Not All Me by Alanis Morissette

my stupid mouth - like you've never heard it before

This video cracked me up so much. I was seriously crying from laughter. I think she can sing well, but not this song. It was not written to be sung like this. What cracked me up the most is this is how I would sing it, if I was making fun of it. I often take songs (mostly hip hop songs) and sing or speak the lyrics with a proper (ie. white) accent. That sounds mean, but you know what I mean. I entertain myself by doing that, so that's what this seems like to me. If you can get past her yapping for a minute and 20 seconds... enjoy!

Four-time Tony Award-winning singer Audra McDonald at the Lincoln Center in 2006 with John Mayer's "My Stupid Mouth"
I had to go and listen to the real version to get this one out of my dead.

I'm dying. This is so funny.

couple random bb8 bits

This is from a post on tv squad:
What are Daniele's true intentions? Who will Dick verbally skewer next week? Can Kail become any more useless? What menial event will cause Amber to have a physical break down? Will Eric mend his ruptured relationship with LNC? What asinine phrase will Jameka utter next? How effortlessly will Zach blend into the background? Will Dustin wear a V-neck shirt that extends all the way down to his navel? Will Jessica's nasally speaking voice cause one of the house guest's eardrums to explode?

All this and more will be revealed come Tuesday. See you then.

Hilarious!

And then this from TMZ:
"Big Brother" Wings Pilot
The producers of the CBS reality show "Big Brother" have grounded a pilot they say planned on ruining the show.

Lawyers for Endemol USA Inc. sent a cease and desist letter to Jerry Hider of Blue Yonder Air, to stop him from flying his plane over the "Big Brother" house. According to Endemol, Hider was planning a flyover carrying a message that told the other players in the house that Eric is "America's Player" -- essentially ruining part of the game.

This season is so freaking strange.

congratulations!

We just found out today that my sister-in-law, Sarah got engaged. We haven't met the guy (they all live in Ohio), but we are very happy for her.

Btw, I stole this photo from her myspace!

"unprimped house"

As my sister has shared her mess, I decided to do the same. However, I have more messy rooms then she does... (and I am ok with that.)
the kitchen
Look at all those freaking dishes!!

the spare bedroom
Tons of crap piled everywhere.

computer room
Crap everywhere. What a mess!

yikes

I need to start dealing with the reality that I am going to be 30. This is something I have feared my whole life. It is less than 3 months away and there is nothing I can do about it. I am not going to post this countdown on my blog permanently. Just as a random post here and there. I cannot look at the countdown on a daily basis or I will go mad.

you will be missed Nick

chocolate rain

Does everyone know about this except me?
It is really scary and really long. I don't even know what its about.

But the hotness making fun of it is even more hilarious...


Oh, here's the original...

i finally figured out how to do this!

highlight it to see it...
I can hide text!

I have been trying to figure it out for a little while.

big brother 8 - 08/02/07

**warning - BIG spoilers**

They did it. Those bastards. My Nick is gone.

more later after I actually watch the live show...

edited to add - 8:20pm PST
Before I go on about my lovely Nick, I want to share my joy in the new HOH. Daniele won! It didn't take long. I was hoping some of it would be on After Dark, but not gonna happen. I will say, if Daniele nominates Jen and Kail, I will be really annoyed. She needs to nominate Dustin and Amber. Its time to break up to LNC. Seriously. Oh, I just saw that Daniele made a deal with Kail in the HOH comp. If Kail gave Daniele HOH, she would not evict her. Sweet! That takes care of that. But just because she made that deal does not mean she has to keep it. Moving on.
Nick was so sweet with his whole exit. He used his exit speech to tell Daniele how he feels about her. He left smiling. I love that Daniele was wearing his other bandana. I love that she was standing by the door alone when he left. I don't know what will happen when they leave, but I hope they do get together. But I do know that he will have his choice of females now. He is "famous" and hot as hell. Who knows. It was sweet while it lasted. I am rooting for Daniele now. I hate Amber more than ever. I love that the show showed her for the hypocrite that she is. She never told Nick the truth. I can't believe she never told him she knew he would be leaving. She said she was going to, but I guess she never got around to it. She tried to tell him in the goodbye message, but she was crying so damn much. She is such a freaking idiot. I don't even hate Jen. I hate Amber and Jameka is up there with her. If I hear Jameka say, "mmmm, hhhh" one more time, I will scream! The whole God thing is crazy too. I can't stand any of them, really. They made a mistake and all knew it and no one stood up for themselves and voted they way they wanted to. They all voted with the group and I hope it comes back and bites them in the ass. I am too angry at them right now. I need to stop. But at least Nick left with his dignity. He will be missed so much.

Oh, and I cannot wait to watch The Early Show and House Calls tomorrow! Last chance to see him for awhile.

Dear John - 06.28.2007

this is a question and answer thing on the fan club site, local 83...

Gret: When you are giving "the stare" while playing onstage, are you actually seeing the person you are looking at or are you somewhere else in your mind?

John: Believe it or not, I’m really locking on to one person. It can be anyone, and I’m not really looking at them in the sense that I’m taking note of the way they appear. I just lock in somehow. Come to think of it I bet it looks obvious.

That is totally what happened at my show! That totally explains "the moment" we had. That also makes me feel like I wasn't going crazy. It actually happened!!!

I know. I need to get a life.

good boys

John Mayer, Dave Matthews to Play Virginia Tech
John Mayer and the Dave Matthews Band are set to play a special concert at Virginia Tech on Sept. 6 to help the university and its students begin the new school year on a positive note following April's tragedy there.

My two favorite musicians know what's up. I have such good taste.

song in my head 08/01/07

Nice To Meet You Anyway by Gavin DeGraw
At the beginning of this video, he explains the song and it totally made me think of Nick and Daniele on Big Brother!

big brother 8 - 08/01/07

**warning - spoilers**

Last night was the broadcast of the veto ceremony. Even though I knew what would happen, I kept wishing it wouldn't. It was painful to watch.

It seems like its too late for Nick. There is rustling around with the idea of keeping Nick, but I don't see it happening. Dick, Daniele and Zach would vote to keep him if they knew they would have the votes. But everyone else seems to scared to vote against the group. They don't really want Nick to leave, but since they made that decision already, they are going with it. This is what I hate most about these stupid people. Vote how YOU want to, not how everyone else is. I know its a game, but what are you gonna do when its just the 7 of you? You are not gonna have the luxury of blaming your vote on the group. Just get over that now and vote how you want to!!!!!! I just want to slap them all silly!!!
Poor Nick...
this morning
The mohawk doesn't really work for me. Eric got one too, but he didn't completely shave the sides bald. It looks dumb, but he is dumb already. I did vote for his ass to evict Kail. The rest of America better have done the same.
Oh, one last thing for now... Dick is starting to think something is up with Eric. Early this morning, he told Daniele he thinks the producers are giving Eric information. I love it!!!

i want to quit my job

I hate it there. There is such drama with it and I really don't want to deal with it.
Here is the deal. When I believed I was pregnant (and for all intents and purposes, I was pregnant), I was not feeling well and missed a few days of work. At my job, you can only have so many absences before they fire you. I was about 3 or 4 from that point, but after missing those days when I was pregnant, they would have put me over the edge. But I was not concerned, because when you are pregnant you are eligible for FMLA and that would cover those missed days. Now, since I miscarried, its like I was never pregnant in the first place and those days will not be covered under FMLA. That means, my only hope is the consideration of my boss to not fire me for the absences. I am currently on a leave of absence until Monday, but I am not sure what my status will be when I go back. I keep leaving messages for my boss to call me if she needs to talk to me, but she hasn't called. I can take that as good or bad. Good that there is no issues, or bad that she wants to tell me in person. I think they will be understanding of my situation, but it will be very awkward going back and not knowing what it up. I would much rather not go back at all. I know that is not a reasonable thing right now. But that is what I want to do.

prison break update

Season 2 DVD still comes out Sept 4th, but the new season starts Sept 17th! Thank goodness. That leaves me less than 2 weeks to get caught up on season 2 before season 3 starts. This is an update, because the previous info I had was that season 3 started August 27th. That would have sucked. But this is much better!

song in my head 07/30/07

Belief by John Mayer
Live Earth performance, 07/07/07

this is my favorite version, though...

from The Village Sessions

I love it when I get songs I love stuck in my head.

the real reason i smile and get up every morning...

This was taken 10 years ago, by my dear friend Kearsten.
Chris was in town for a visit and we went around town and she took tons of photos of us. Since it was 10 years ago this summer, that these were taken, I decided I needed to share them. I am gonna scan the others and post more later.
But as I said in the post title... this is the love of my life. I talk about the hotness and other boys, but this is the man I love. This is the reason I get out of bed every morning. This is the person who has been my best friend for over 13 years. I drive him crazy and annoy the hell out of him (and vice versa!), but there is no one else on earth I would rather be with. No one.

edited to add: Here are the rest of the photos. I love them all!

more stuff to smile at

An exclusive behind-the-scenes look at John's current tour, featuring video footage and interviews with John, his band and his crew backstage, at the soundcheck and more! (from Fender.)

This just so happens to have been recorded here; at the show I went to in June. Woo hoo! That's why it's getting posted.

big brother 8 - 07/30/07

**warning - spoilers**

I hate them all right now!

Let me just get to the spoiler... Jameka is gonna use the veto and take Jen off. Dustin is gonna nominate Nick and they are gonna vote Nick out.

I am so addicted to this season, its not even funny. I even went so far as to sign up for Showtime just so I can watch Big Brother After Dark. I record it and watch it in the mornings. I also read the message boards for the live feed updates. I live for this right now. I will admit that my current obsession with it is not really healthy. I always get like this for certain things. I need to get a life, but I am not quite sure how to accomplish that at this time. But that's another story for another time.

So, the house has lost their minds! Dick, Daniele, Dustin, Amber, Jessica, Eric and Jameka are in an alliance, even though they won't admit that is what it is. There is conflict between them, so I don't know how long it will last. But for this week, they organized and all came to the decision to get rid of Nick. Most of them are saying it is because it will be best for Daniele. They think they need to protect her. Daniele (and Amber too) are not happy about voting Nick out, but she is going along with the house (for now). I am so sad. I love Nick. Yes, he can be a jerk and he needs to get his head right when it comes to Daniele. But her actions speak louder than her words (ie. making out with his just this morning under the covers!!). Nick is the reason I watch the show. He is eye candy and a half. He is really a good guy and they are scared for him, in more ways than one. I am just dreading the next few days.
I think he knows something is up, too. This was him early this morning:
He still thinks they are gonna put Zach up, because he keeps asking Dustin about it. But I think he is concerned about the late night chats that the alliance has. See, Nick goes to bed around 11:30 or so every night. The alliance has meetings, usually around 1 or 2am. He has never really been a part of that. He has reason for concern, because it was Saturday night that they came up with the idea of getting rid of him.

BOO HISS!!! I would like to say that I am gonna stop watching when the get rid of Nick, but I cannot say that. I will keep watching. But I think I will lay off the message boards a little and reconsider keeping Showtime all summer. Those fools are not that interesting without the eye candy.

3:29pm PST - edited to add: They did it. Nick is on the block. He is gonna go home, unless we can all get together and force Eric to vote for Kail to get evicted. That is our only hope. If America's Player has to vote for Kail, then I believe Eric will try to sway the vote that way. He does not want to stand out in the crowd by voting against the house, so he will try to get them to vote out Kail. Please god, let that happen! We all have to vote for Eric to evict Kail on Tuesday night!!!
And one more thing. Now that Nick is nominated, Amber is crying up a storm (duh!). Nick is the one trying to console her!!!!!!! She orchestrated his nomination and he is consoling her??? I hate Amber soooo much.

edited to add - 4:40pm PST: Here's video of Amber crying, holding onto Nick's leg and him consoling her. This goes on for more than the length of this video... she is freaking insane. She is also telling him that she didn't know Dustin was gonna put him up! What a liar!!!!!


edited to add - 6:32pm PST: Nick shaved his head (with help from Dustin). He now has a lovely mohawk. He's been talking about doing this for over a week, so it is not a reaction to his inevitable eviction. I will have to see how it looks on After Dark tonight... but here is a grainy photo:

tonight's episode: so you think you can dance

I just knew that when they started talking about the solo dance with Wade Robson, that the song would be Waiting on the World to Change. I have no problem hearing that song 10 times in one show. Love it! And the dance ain't bad either.
Btw, my favorite dancer is Dominic.

edited to add: Even though Dominic is my favorite dancer, he didn't do so great last night. Here is the best performance of the night, Lauren's solo:

edited again to add: I may be slow on this, but I just found out that Lauren is from Scottsdale, AZ! We rule on reality shows.

it seems I was gone too long

My site traffic has dramatically decreased lately and I know that is because I was not blogging. I had my reasons, but I hope that people come back...

another reason to smile

The hotness (pre-hair cut, pre-break up) in GQ. read the article here.

I still like the last one I posted better, but these work too.

have you Simpsonized yourself?

Everybody's doing it...hehe. That's a bluetooth in the ear!
Try it.

what a relief

I am glad I finally blogged about what has been going on with me. I do feel better having put that information out into the world. There have been things I've felt like blogging about, but just haven't felt like I could. So, expect me to get back to basics... meaning all John Mayer (and other boys) all the time.

And did you notice the new photo on the sidebar? --->
My sister took that in Jamaica.

a reason to smile

I am telling you... when I just saw this, I just about screamed and woke the husband up. I had to cover my mouth. This is gorgeous. A little too posed and pretty, but works for me!


New celeb Gap ads
Do you recognize this guy? A new fall Gap ad campaign, called Classics Redefined, features 12 black and white Annie Leibovitz portraits of stars. Each portrait is numbered to highlight 12 wardrobe essentials Gap things you'll need this fall. Here, John Mayer wears the $39.50 Sweater Vest.

Other celebs in the campaign include Sarah Silverman in The Wide Leg Trouser ($49.50), Lucy Liu wearing a Little Black Sweater Dress ($59.50) and Ken Watanabe in The Tailored White Shirt ($39.50). The photos will appear in the September issues of national magazines.

the only way out is through

Here it is. Why I've been avoiding blogging...

I had another miscarriage.

The first was in October 2006.

This time I was 8 1/2 weeks along.

The reason I hadn't been blogging is because I had a rough time after finding out I was pregnant. I actually found out on June 13th (the same day as the John Mayer show I went to; making that day completely incredible.). After I found out, I really laid low. After losing the first baby, I was trying not get caught up in it. But it was impossible for me to not deal with it. I was so tried all the time and very nauseous. I even had some spotting for a few days. But with every passing day, I gained more confidence. After I made it past the 7th week (the time I had the first miscarriage), I felt better. No one knows this... Every night when I went to bed, I would pray, "Please God, just give me one more day." It seemed to be working. But two days before my first pre-natal doctors appointment, I had really bad pain. I couldn't sleep, it was so bad. But there was not blood. I just thought that maybe it was bad gas or something. At least that's what I tried to convince myself of. But I knew something wasn't right. The day before the appointment, I told Chris that I wanted to go to the appointment and just tell me to do the ultrasound before talking to me about being pregnant and asking me all the questions, because if there wasn't anything there the questions would be pointless. How did I know? I just knew. I didn't want to know. At the appointment on the 12th, I tried to act like everything was fine. I didn't say anything and went along with the nurse's questions. Then she started the ultrasound. Chris was with me in the room. She said that she couldn't see anything in the gestational sac. There was one there, but she couldn't see the fetus. She called in the ultrasound pro of the office to try to see if she could get a picture of the baby. But there was nothing there. After the ultrasound, the nurse told me that she believed I had what's called a blighted ovum. She said that I needed to come back in a week for another ultrasound to see if anything has changed. She did say there was a chance that I was not as far along as I thought and that's why the baby wasn't visible, but I knew that wasn't the case. See, I knew there was nothing there. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that I knew. Last Monday, I started bleeding and cramping badly. I called the doctor and went in that afternoon. The sac that had been large on Thursday was like a deflated balloon and it was over. No chance. I knew that and had been dealing with the loss since that Thursday. No dealing well, but not holding out any hope. I will say that after the first doctors appointment I started praying that my body would take care of the situation on its own. If nothing had happened in a week after the appointment, I was going to have a d & c, so that I wouldn't have to live with feeling pregnant and knowing that I wasn't. I really didn't want to have to go thru that and so I am happy that my body took care of it. So physically, I am ok. I still have to go thru more blood work to make sure my hCG hormone level decreases. But I am sure that will be ok too. For some reason, my body recovers well from miscarriages, but I just can't seem to keep a baby. All the clichés don't work this time. Before, I could believe that hey, I got pregnant once, I can get pregnant again. Blah blah blah. I did get pregnant again and this one didn't work either.
I am stuck in the anger. I have hardly cried at all. I know this is not good. I know that I am dealing with this all wrong. I just push it all down and pretend its not there. But if I can't get past the anger, I don't know what I will do. I tell people I am ok, because that is the easiest way to be for me. Some people find anger easier, but not me. Being positive is more comfortable to me, even if its not my true feelings.
I am starting to doubt if motherhood is something I am meant to do. I have been in this holding pattern. Waiting to become a mother for my life to start. Maybe I just need to get a life and face my reality. That is way easier said than done.

So, that's that. For now.

Out is Through by Alanis Morissette

This is the song of the month.
More later...

hey now you're an all star

Tonight is the Home Run Derby. That is the best part of the whole deal. The game usually is pretty boring. The pitching is great, the hitting is great, etc. As it should be. But I am excited for tonight's event. In fact, it starts in just a minute so I need to be wrapping this up.

song in my head 07/09/07

Big Girls Dont Cry by Fergie
This song has actually been in my head for about 3 days now! I can't stand her. But I love that Milo Ventimiglia is in the video. He's cool.

live earth

Are you watching this today?
If you are not, at least tune in around 5-6pm EST (2-3pm PST) to see the hotness. woo hoo!
So you know where I will be today.

edited to add: photos from the show


source
Loving the aviators. Should say "How HOT is your Mayer?" Neat.

edited to add again: He later performed with The Police (along with Kanye West). I was lucky to catch the performance on the NBC broadcast. After I saw John and Dave Matthews Band, I sorta stopped watching it. But I was clicking around and stopped to see what they were still showing and... lucky me!

i am still alive

I am just still not feeling real well. I spend most of my days sleeping or laying down.
More later. Just wanted to check in.

feeling HAWT HAWT HAWT

Today marks the all-time record high in Phoenix
Today marks the all-time record high in Phoenix history when we reached 122 degrees in 1990. Temperatures will be above normal today, but good thing, staying FAR away from that record!

High pressure continues to dominate our weather in the southwest, and strengthens a bit today, warming temperatures well above normal. Today’s normal high in Phoenix should be 106, and we’re expected to reach 111. That high pressure will break down a bit by the end of the work week, allowing temperatures to come back down. Even though we’re expected temps to drop, they will still be above normal.

There are no heat advisories in effect right now, but don’t let your guard down. You still want to do those outdoor activities early in the morning or late in the evening. Make sure to drink plenty of water, and dress appropriately, if you must be outdoors. Stay cool everyone!

hooray. I remember that day. I was 12.

prison break season 2 DVD

Comes out September 4th
Sweet!
However, I read that season 3 starts August 27th. That's not right. I need at least a week with the DVD to get caught up before the new season. They better change one of those dates.

summer TV

Big Brother 8 starts July 5th!!
World Series of Pop Culture starts July 9th!!
And of course, I am already into So You Think You Can Dance, Entourage and Big Love.
I did find out that there will be no new season of Rock Star. That's a bummer.
Gotta love it when there are new shows to watch over the summer.

Waitress

I went and saw this movie today. I loved it! I was so well written. The story is so simple, but it was so well done. It is a major shame that the writer/director/co-star, Adrienne Shelly was killed before the movie came out.
What I liked about the movie: I loved all the names of the pies. Keri Russell was amazing. I really like Jeremy Sisto, but this movie actually made me dislike him strongly. I also loved the interaction between Keri Russell's character and Andy Griffith. He was a great character, even though you could predict what would happen. (I won't give away the ending, cause I want anyone who hasn't seen it, to see it!)
See it. You won't regret it.

gross or lovely?

I was cleaning grapes yesterday and discovered this one. It was a mold spot, but it was seriously shaped like this. I did not alter it in any way. It has a moldy heart on it. How weird! Should I sell it on ebay, like the Virgin Mary grilled cheese?

edited to add: Like my lovely gold flecked counter top?

you know you are exhausted when you try to unlock your car with your house key

Since I was posting music stuff, that means I am still alive. But I just have not been feeling well lately. I have had lots of trouble sleeping. I am feeling better today, but still behind on sleep. Lack of sleep makes everything else worse. If I wasn't tired, I would probably be ok. I have just been laying low and watching too much tv. I don't really have many witty things to write about now. I just wanted the world to know that I am still here and things should be looking up soon.

1st official day of summer

It's supposed to be 113 today. The hottest day of the year, so far. Fitting for the summer solstice.

massive JM youtube concert footage post

99% of you might not give two shits about this, but I do. And this is my blog, damn you. So, I am archiving the footage from my concert for the future. The videos are of varying lengths and quality, but they are in order by the set list. If you feel the need, check some of them (or all-if you wanna be cool like me!) out.


intro to I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)


random talking
during this I took this and this


crappy footage of Bigger Than My Body


Dreaming With A Broken Heart


Dreaming With A Broken Heart
Posted it twice, because in this one, I am somewhere in the dark on the right! In front of the guitar player with the red jacket.


crappy footage of No Such Thing


intro to Belief
I took this photo with the blue lighting was during this!


jam ending to I Don't Need No Doctor
This was happening right in front of me!! See!!


Waiting on the World to Change


Wonderland
You can really hear the audience participation on this one.

song in my head 06/19/07

Quit Playing Games (With My Heart) by the Backstreet Boys
Another one I am not proud of. How does this crap get in my head?

hehe

This cracks my shit up! And after seeing him last night, I have to admit that he is way sexier now that he is single.

A guest at the Sunset Marquis in West Hollywood tells Celebrity Babylon EXCLUSIVELY that singer John Mayer, 29, was yelling into his phone with his head down outside by the pool on Monday morning, June 11. Says the hotel guest, "He said 'Jess' a bunch of times, so I would think he was talking to Jessica Simpson. He looked wiped out, circles under his eyes, and some pal was grabbing him coffee while he was having this fight over the phone. There was a lot I couldn't hear, but at the end before he hung up, he told her to stop calling, stop texting, stop all of it -- leave me alone! He was shaking his head back and forth like, 'God, make her stop,' and his friend was sort of chuckling at him." Jessica Simpson,26, is shamelessly chasing her on-again off-again boyfriend John Mayer, and it looks like he's finally telling her "enough!"
source

"Is it me, or does he keep looking at you?"

Read the title of this post, if you haven't already. That is what my friend, Carrie said to me during the 4th song of the set. I could not make that shit up. She really said that. My reaction: "Oh my God, you noticed that too! I thought I was going crazy."
So, this is my review of the John Mayer concert last night. Based on that, you can probably assume what my review of the show will be. The show was awesome. The seats I had for this show were the best I ever had. We were so close, it was almost surreal. During the 2nd song, the hotness and I had a moment. I swear. When I was not taking photos, I was looking at him. We made eye contact multiple times and at one point, he looked at me for a little longer than before. It was like he was singing to me. I know it sounds nuts. And at first, I thought I was losing my mind too. Then Carrie said what she said and I realized I wasn't crazy. I wasn't imagining him looking at me. I don't think it was anything other than the fact that I was looking right at him and we were close enough to make eye contact. Maybe I was burning a hole in him, but whatever. After that, I really didn't care what happened. I enjoyed the show and took lots of photos. There were some drunk girls next to me that were crazy dumb. At one point, they even asked me to go buy them more beer. They were old enough to buy it for themselves, but just too drunk. They were dumb, but not overly bitchy. But I really think I am cursed. I always get stuck next to freaks. They were entertaining, though. My favorite moment (other than "our moment"), was Why Georgia. It is such an oldie, but goodie. I love the audience participation part of that song too. Before the show, I told Carrie that he has not performing Wonderland during this tour, then he shocked us all by busting it out in the encore. All acoustic-like made it ok. I am really over that song and have been for years. I could go on and on and maybe I will in later posts, but for now...
Here is the setlist:
Vultures
Good Love is On the Way
Why Georgia
I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)
Bigger Than My Body
Dreaming With A Broken Heart
No Such Thing
Belief
I Don't Need No Doctor
Waiting on the World to Change
Gravity

-- encore --
Slow Dancing (acoustic)
Your Body is a Wonderland (acoustic)
I'm Gonna Find Another You

i heart the hotness

I just got home from the show. I am uploading my photos to flickr and then going to bed. I will post all about it (IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME!!) tomorrow. In the mean time, here are two photos: (the first shows how close we were and the second is just cuz)

i tweaked the template

I am thinking of reworking the template this summer. My sister inspired me, but I was thinking of doing it anyway. But in the mean time, I made the posting section wider. Let me know if it is funky for you. Thanks in advance!

see you tomorrow, hotness

In the mean time... this was last night on The Tonight Show:

Uploaded by tryjm

btw, I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!
Have I mentioned lately where my seats are located for tomorrow's show?

living xl

I got a catalog for a new company called Living XL. It is really cool. It has some REALLY strange things (like this. what the hell is it?), but most of the stuff is smart. As a plus size person, I am often confronted with things not supporting my weight or being too small. I very interested in purchasing the step stool. We have a wooden one, but I am scared of falling so I never use it. Chris has to reach and get things for me. Anyway. I am really happy that people are finally realizing that we need things to fit us.

song in my head 06/07/07

The Goonies 'R' Good Enough by Cyndi Lauper
I feel I need to include the disclaimer regarding songs in my head, again...
Just because the song is in my head, does not mean I necessarily like it... Most of the time I like the song, but sometimes dumb songs stick in my head. I just think it's fun to share what song I have in my head. Because, as I have mentioned before, I usually have a song in my head at all times and it's usually the same song all day.

But, I like today's song!!! God only knows how I got it in my head!

skittles limited edition carnival flavors

These are kind of gross. They are sooooo freaking sweet, almost sickeningly sweet. I need to rinse my mouth out with something.
I saw them at Walgreens and thought I would try them, since they are limited edition. But damn... I do not recommend them.
Here is some more info about them.

"What did we watch on this TV before this show?" ...

...that is what Chris keeps saying about our new favorite show, Scarred, on MTV. It is so freaking gross. But you just can't look away. I found a badly made montage on youtube. The worst one, in my opinion is the 3rd one on this video.
WARNING: blood and foul language in excess!

the latest installment of people say the dumbest things...

Here are some fun things customers have said today:

"I had one of your customers hit my car."
"One of your people backed in to me."
"A deer ran in to the road and hit him."

Really? People, seriously. Think before you talk. If I take you literally, the accident takes on a whole different meaning. The use of pronouns astonishes me.

I have no patience today. I didn't sleep well and I have no cash to purchase caffeine. People say this shit everyday, but today is getting on my last nerve. No, my last nerve left the building a few hours ago. I have nothing left to deal with these people.

my eyes are burning

The weirdest thing happened last night. I was checking my myspace and saw a bulletin from an old friend. It said that he was on the cover of the current issue of a magazine. It a local gay male magazine. Ok, cool. Good for him. I was excited to see it. I went to the magazine website and they have the issue as a .pdf. I saw the cover and the photo spread inside. It was a swimsuit photo shoot and it cracked me up. See, I have know this boy since he was a toddler. He is the younger brother of an old friend of mine and he was my friend too. He was actually my junior prom date. That's a funny side story... Chris and I were together my junior year of high school, but he was in Ohio and I was here. I wanted to still go to my prom, so I went as friends with this kid. He was a freshman at the time. It was lots of fun, because we all went as a group, including his sister and her date. So, since I have know this guy forever, it made me laugh seeing him being all model-like. I saw, in the last photo of the shoot, the credits that said he was appearing courtesy of such and such agency. I thought it was cool that he was modeling all that. So, I went to the website for the agency. The main page said that the site contained some XXX material and you must be over 18. I didn't really think much of it, because I wanted to see if he had other photos from the agency, so I clicked to enter the site. BIG MISTAKE!!! Now, I am not dumb. I know that the warning on the first page means that the site is porn, but I really didn't think about it. I don't have a problem with porn, but what I saw when the page opened has haunted me since last night. The first thing I see, are porn photos of this guy in the act. There were 4 successive photos getting worse and worse. The other guy in the photos is his boyfriend, so that makes it a little ok, but still... Who wants to see their junior prom date and a kid they considered a brother, in the act like that? Not me. Not ever. Disturbing. Very disturbing.
No, I will not post the links. I will not say his name. If you know me, you know who it is. Otherwise, the vagueness of this is enough.

song in my head 06/05/07

Rehab by Amy Winehouse

couldn't see this coming

PEOPLE confirms it. Although I could have told you it wouldn't last. Single works for him! Need proof?

New BlackBerry Curve ads:Be still my heart.
I can't wait to see you, Johnny. 8 days!!!!!

world record!

Today we saw a new world record set in hot dog eating. We went to the local qualifying round of Nathan's Famous hot dog eating contest. It was at the mall not far from home. It was the most random thing ever. Here are some photos. I didn't get very many or any thing good, but I could not let this occasion go undocumented. There were so many people there. It was crazy! But it was just something random to do. A hot summer day. Go to the mall and watch people gorge themselves. Plus, we like the watch competitive eating on TV and we have heard of Joey Chestnut. He is the guy that won. He ate 59 hot dogs in 12 minutes. Yes. Not even kidding. We saw that happen.

today

I wasn't sure I was going to write about this, but I figured I might as well. Maybe it will help to talk about it.
Today is was my due date.
That is, of course, if I hadn't lost the baby back in October.
My mom is coming over today and we are going shopping, in an attempt to distract me and make sure I make it thru this day.
See, when I lost the baby, it was devastating. I took a month off work. I couldn't really function. After a while, things got easier. So much so that we started trying to get pregnant again. I don't think about losing the baby on a daily basis, but occasionally things will happen and I get knocked back to reality and I get sad. Today is one of those days. I can't really ignore what today is. I can't just go on like it is a regular day. I am going to try, but I need to grieve today. I think that is ok. My life was supposed to change today. And it is not going to. I am gonna wake up tomorrow and my life will be the same as it was today and yesterday. How do you deal with that? I didn't have a lot of time to get used to the idea of having a baby, but I have been wanting this my whole life. So I guess the anticipation has been building for a really long time. Today is just another reminder that is not going to happen yet. Sure, you can say "You got pregnant once, you can get pregnant again." But getting pregnant the first time took 2 years.
Ok, enough. My pity party is over. I am sad today. Sad for my loss. Sad for the life I might never have. Sad. Please just understand that sometimes it gets hard to deal with. That's all. Especially today.