since I am obsessed with him...

Well, I watched Prison Break all season long. But the fall finale is tonight and I am sad about that. It's not supposed to come back until May. BOO HISS.

edited to add: The finale was such a let down! They got stuck and couldn't break out. But one good thing... they said it would be back on in March, not May. Sweet. Only 3 months to wait.

The Bible on DVD

Chris and I saw an infomercial for this a few weeks ago. We laughed about it for hours. We thought it would be really funny to take 3 days off from work and watch the bible straight thru. I guess you had to be there. But it cracks me up even still. I wandered across it again today and thought I would share. And say that we thought for a minute how funny it would be to buy it for my mother-in-law for Christmas. LOL!

does Santa really have a blog?

Maybe.
But I think that if it really was Santa, the blog would be much more festive.

distractions

Wentworth Miller
be sure to click to see the slideshow.
he's my new TV boyfriend.
had a dream about him on Friday night.
Yum.


Dude! It's finally cold!!!!!


Goldfish Holiday crackers



This Christmas by Jane Green, Jennifer Coburn, Liz Ireland
just bought this today! Love Jane Green. It's 3 short stories.


Dilettante chocolate covered bing cherries
eating them as we speak

so much to say

augh
Can't really think of a better way to explain my feelings right now. I need to vent myself and I don't want it to be misunderstood. I am in no way blaming anyone for my shitty weekend. I am a member of a family and when major things happen to one, they affect all. Please don't misunderstand. Please don't feel guilty. But I am stressed out and my weekend sucked. I did not get dressed at all yesterday. I was in my pajamas until 4pm, then I just took a shower and spent the rest of the night in my robe. Lovely.
The last 5 days broken down...
Wednesday - saw RENT! I cried from the opening credits all the way thru. Not constantly, but here and there during the whole thing. I am glad I was by myself and that there were not many people in the theater. I was able to cry in peace. I loved it. I came home and told Chris all about it. What was added. What was missing. I could go on and on about it, but it will only make sense you anyone who has seen the musical as many times as me. I still need to drag Chris to see it. We will soon. The weekend was flipped upside down, so we will go another day.
Thanksgiving - was nice. Family get together at my cousins house. Lots and lots of food, football, kids. Nice.
Friday - started very bad. Lots of talking. Lots of crying. Lots of cooking. Chris and I did our own Thanksgiving meal. The whole works. I made a pecan pie, pumpkin pie and sweet potato casserole. Chris made turkey, stuffing and potatoes. Yum. Lots of leftovers. And Chris's friend (and former co-worker) was in town from LA and he came over to visit for a few hours that night. It was really nice to see Keith (or as he is known to us - Junior). We saw him last year when we were in LA, but since we aren't going this year, it was cool he came to town and came over.
Saturday - explained most that already. Did nothing. Laundry is still sitting in the washer and the dryer. I did do the checkbook and paid some bills, but that was about it. Watched lots of Tv. Did a lot of looking at Chris and saying, "Dude" out of shock at the family drama.
Sunday - that's today. I am at work. It's really slow. That a good thing. Found a website with lots of dumb games. Trying to entertain myself and not think about it. That's not happening.
Not sure when we will start to decorate for Christmas. I want to do it soon, but just don't have the motivation.

explanation not needed

The only way out is through
The faster we're in the better
The only way out is through ultimately
The only way out is through
The only way we'll feel better
The only way out is through ultimately

NO DAY BUT TODAY!

Then why did I wake up with a freaking migraine? SUCK.
I slept all night on my back. I get headaches when I sleep like that. I am so messed up. I hate myself sometimes because of all my medical issues. It makes me feel old.
But I am still pushing myself, because its finally here. RENT! TODAY! 12:45pm!

Besides that. I have a 3 1/5 day weekend. Tomorrow is Turkey Day. We are going to my cousin's house. It should be cool. They have a huge house, but there will be lots of people. Family fun all around. Then on Friday, Chris and I are having our own Thanksgiving. Chris bought a 9lb turkey so we will have leftovers. I am making the world famous sweet potato casserole and a pecan pie. Chris is gonna make stuffing, potatoes and I am not sure what else. For the family meal tomorrow, he is making his famous stuffed zucchini and he also made baked beans. He makes really good beans from scratch. Yum. I love Thanksgiving leftovers. Sandwiches. Yum.

Last night, I watched the entire American Music Awards. Tortured myself is more like it. All my sources said John Mayer would be there. But turns out now, he decided not to go. And the award he was nominated for did not even air. He was up for Adult Contemporary Favorite Artist. He was beaten by Kelly Clarkson. I am very disappointed that I wasted my time on that show. They aired like 2 awards and had like 300 performances. Of course I am exaggerating, but still. Those shows are always like that. Why did I think this would be any different? But he was on Good Morning America yesterday and I taped and watched that last night. What a cute boy! He is supposed to be on Conan tonight and Letterman tomorrow. So, if you are up late...

Better get back to my last hour of work...

we're not gonna pay

DUDE! RENT! TOMORROW!
Tomorrow I get to say that there's NO DAY BUT TODAY!
I am so freaking excited.
I am going to a 12:45pm showing. I get off work at noon and I'm heading straight to the theater. I will eat popcorn for lunch. I can't wait.
Have I mentioned that I love RENT?
I love the boys in RENT too. I am obsessed with Adam Pascal and have been for almost 10 years. And who doesn't love Taye Diggs and Jesse L Martin. And Anthony Rapp reminds me of my bro-in-law. I love it. I love them. I better bring tissues, because I am sure I will cry. I cried during every performance I've seen and I cry just listening to the soundtrack.
DUDE! RENT! TOMORROW!

I guess I get what I ask for, right?

Me: "Were any authorities notified?"
freak on the phone: "Yes."
Me: "What department was it that came out?"
freak on the phone: "The police department."

sick? You're sick?

Yes. Since right around Halloween, I have been feeling very ill. It started as congestion and went down into my throat and got stuck there. I tried to be in denial about being ill. My birthday, our company, our trip up north (I still need to work on the pictures, I know.). Push through it and I will feel better soon. Problem was, after our friends left, I started to feel worse. It was like my body shut down. I was coughing like crazy and was having trouble breathing. I finally went to the doctor on Monday, after leaving work early. I have bronchitis. I was given antibiotics and some cough medicine and told to lay low and rest. I stayed home from work and have been trying to get better. But I still don't feel 100% yet. I'd say I am at about 60%. I am trying again to not be sick. I went to work on Thursday, since it was only my half day. And yesterday, my mom and I went shopping. We had a lot of fun, but I think that I pushed myself too hard. Don't feel guilty, Mom. It was my decision. You told me we could stop and go home, but I didn't want to. I don't want to be sick. I want to feel better. I have a big, exciting week coming up. Tonight, we are supposed to go my works year end event at the Phoenix Zoo. I just don't know if I am going to feel up to it. Plus, I have to work this week. I need the money to pay for all the shopping I did yesterday. Tuesday, the JM3 album comes out. Wednesday, I get to work half day and go see RENT in the afternoon. I am jumping out of my skin with excitement for seeing RENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then Thursday is Turkey Day at my cousins. Then over the weekend, Chris and I are gonna make our own Thanksgiving dinner for just us. We do this every year, that we have leftovers. So, its a Big Week coming up. I need to feel better and really, really want to.

If you're not watching Grey's Anatomy...

you should be! As I say every Sunday night at 10pm (when it's over), "That's the second best show on television." First being Nip/Tuck. But lately, I have been loving Grey's a little more than Nip/Tuck. They are more like tied for first for me.

Read this article.

update on the john

I have been so sick the last few weeks that I haven't even thought about my blog. But since the new John Mayer Trio live album comes out on Tuesday, I thought I should bring everyone up to date on the latest. You can catch the album on Hear Music First on VH1.com. It is incredible.
There are also up coming TV appearances to pimp the album:

Good Morning America
November 22, 2005

American Music Awards
November 22, 2005

The Late Show With David Letterman
November 24, 2005

Late Night with Conan O'Brien
December 24, 2005 (Late night on the 23rd)

Check it all out. I promise you will not be disappointed. Even if you don't like John Mayer, the album is worth a second of you time (at least track 1, 2, 4, 9 & for a classic, track 8)

about last week

The week with our friends from Indianapolis ended with a major reality check for me. We (being me & Chris) had been getting strange vibes from them, like they weren't having fun. But then they would say that they were. We really couldn't get a read on how they felt about us and being here. I really wanted to show them as much as I could of Arizona as possible. So I made lists of things we could do and I planned that awesome trip that those pictures below are from. But still, strange behavior. Apparently it was me. All me. That was the problem. I overstress and overplan. No one said this directly to me, but was inferred and not denied. I mentioned, while we were at lunch on Thursday, that I was a total bitch (referring the air freshener that Chris bought me) and Chris said that he read a book at one of the bookstores about my sign, Scorpio. And it said that I was controlling and selfish and all sorts of other stuff. Chris was joking around and said that I was just like my sign. The response I got to that was - they looked at each other in a look that was agreement and never said a word. What the hell! So, it got me thinking. I really am that way. I just live in this constant state of denial. And having reality slap me in the face just isn't my idea of a good time. I broke down on Thursday night, after we got back. I cried myself to sleep. There are a lot of reasons why I realized that I was the problem. They also have a friend who lives in Phoenix who one of them used to work with. They wanted to go out with him and we had no problem with that. But the thing is, they were soooo tired and wanted to go home when we were driving thru Mingus Mountain and Prescott Valley. Then, we get home and they go out with that guy and are out until 1am. I thought you were tired? It was like the first chance for them to get away from me, they jumped at it. Whatever. I realized that I want other people to act like I do. I treat others like I want to be treated and it NEVER HAPPENS. It sounds like I am being really hard on myself and I understand that it's not all my issues that made the week strange. But I don't like how I am. I don't want to be in denial of how I really think and feel. I really wanted the week to end, but I also didn't want to go back to my life. I wasn't happy in either. I need to do some serious thinking about myself.

I sounds like I didn't have any fun. But that's not true. I tried to make the best out of a bad situation. We went lots of fun places while they were here. Here's a break down...

Friday -
food: Red Brick Pizza
Arizona Mills Mall

Saturday -
Taliesin West
Cosanti
food: El Paso BBQ

Sunday -
food: IHOP
South Mountain park
food: Rosati's

Monday -
The Heard Museum
IKEA

Tuesday -
The Grand Canyon
Arizona Mountain Inn(the cabin we stayed in)

Wednesday -
Oak Creek Canyon
Slide Rock
Sedona
food: Oak Creek Brewery
Red Rock State Park
Cottonwood
food: Blazin M Ranch

Thursday -
Jerome
RAKU Gallery
food: Jerome Brewery
Jerome State Historic Park
Mingus Mountain
Prescott Valley

See? We did lots of cool stuff. So for that, I am really happy. And I have a billion pictures I need to sort thru.
I will be ok.

a couple of...

trip pics to get you through until I organize them better. We just got home a few hours ago and are really tired. But I wanted to share a couple shots before I go to bed.

at the Grand Canyon


at Slide Rock

what we did yesterday

As you probably know already, our friends are here visting from Indianapolis. They came in on Friday and since then we have been having fun going out to eat, hanging out and this is what we did yesterday...

Taliesin West




Cosanti

Birthday Thanks

I want to say thank you for all my wonderful birthday gifts.
I usually list everything that I got, but I don't have that kind of time now. I still wanted to post my thank you, though.

Happy Birthday to me

Life in 2005

1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.

2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.

3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.

4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.

5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that they don't have e-mail addresses.

6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.

7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the screen.

8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and you turn around to go and get it.

10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.

11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : )

12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.

13. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.

14. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on this list.