i didn't go

Tonight was my 10 year high school reunion. I had planned to go. I decided yesterday that I couldn't do it. Then today, I went back and forth a couple of times. I wanted to go. I just could not bring myself to do it. I knew what the night would entail. Everyone asking everyone else about their lives and families and all that. What could I have said? My life is non existant right now. I can't bring myself to get dressed. I didn't even comb my hair today. Why? There is no reason to. I laid on the couch and watched Prison Break and QVC all day. I know that this is not healthy. I know that I should try to get my life back. But you know what? I almost don't want to. It seems pointless.