best of idol - top 5

I have no words. Well, maybe a couple...

If Jason leaves tonite, there will be chaos and total distruction of this rigged Idol machine. I hate this show. I believe that even if he got the least votes (which I highly doubt), he will not leave. I believe, in fact, they will reveal him to be the first person safe tonite. If they don't cover their asses, Idol will have to deal with the consquences. They have been making him out to be a total dumb ass for weeks. They show him messing up with Neil Diamond. Show him getting embarrassed. Like that is the only footage they had to show? They are doing it on purpose. It is so not fair. This show is so biased and so rigged and this season has exposed it for what it really is.
I could explain what happened last night, or I could forward you to an article that will explain better than I ever could. Read it here.
I am too upset to talk about it anymore. I can't even eat my lunch. My stomach is in knots.

This day cannot end soon enough.

edited to add: I called this bitch! He was brought out first and declared safe right away. Hehe. So predictable.

banned camp

Did you know it's possible to get kicked off the American Idol forum? Well it is. Ask me and about 6 or so of my online friends. We spent all weekend hanging out in the forum and talking to each other. We were making each other laugh so hard. We got a little nasty (ok, a lot nasty!) and were posting things full of innuendo. I was up so late on Friday and Saturday night. When I woke up on Sunday, I discovered that our thread had been deleted and we were all banned from the boards. It was more funny than anything. We knew we were pushing the boundaries, but we were having too much fun. So, that's where the whole banned camp comes in. People who get banned can get reinstated and they say that's where they were. I requested to be reinstated and was on Monday morning. By then, we had all created new user ids and found each other. So stupid. But the best thing to come out of it was that I met some amazing people and we are famous! Everyone else on the boards know about us. Mant people were reading our conversation, but not contributing. They were all too scared. For good reason, I guess. But now every time I (or any of the other girls) post, people freak that their threads are gonna get hijacked and deleted. Yesterday, I commented on something that seemed benign, but another girl said something like she wanted to keep the thread PG. So I commented back, "Ok, I'll leave. Apparently my reputation precedes me." It is hilarious.
So, since we cannot really talk like we like to on the boards, we are all now meeting in a chat room at night. It is easier that way, because its real time. These girls rock. I am so glad I met them. I know - online friends, don't equal real friends. But I totally disagree. These people that I bonded with this weekend are amazing. We have so much fun making each other laugh. We get along so well and can't believe that we all found each other. We decided last night that even if Jason goes today, next week or whenever, we will still talk. It started with a mutual love, but grown quickly into a great friendship.

goth girls rule!!!

jennifer aniston, eh?

So, while I have been slightly pre-occupied, the hotness has been going out behind my back. He spent a week in Miami with Jennifer Aniston. There are pictures floating around now of them laying out by the pool. Guess that confirms that.
How do I feel about this? I just want him to be happy and if she works for him, I support it. She is way too old for him, though. But at least she has some class. That was clearly missing from the past relationship that shall go un-mentioned here.
But seriously, the boy gets around, eh?

what a day!

Today is crazy for me. The Suns game. American Idol. They are singing two songs (spoiler alert - Forever In Blue Jeans and September Morn - it's Neil Diamond week!). Maybe if I could tear myself away from the message boards and chats to get some stuff done, life would be simpler.

Also, day celebrates 14 years since Chris and I became officially boyfriend and girlfriend. He does not like to call it an anniversary, but I do. So, it's our 14th anniversary as a couple.
04-29-94 to 04-29-08 to forever
Ok, that was cheesy. But still. He is the love of my life and I knew it 14 years ago.
edited to add: We look like babies. That's because we were! 16 year olds who thought they knew it all!

they'd only put the winner in the middle, right?

source

welcome to the world, Colbie

My cousin, Crista had her baby by c-section early this morning, at around 2:30am. She was just over 5 lbs, but is healthy. She shares a birthday with my sister!

to my sister

another good day?

Not sure how a great a day today will be. The Suns lost again last night. This is the new quote on their website:
Yikes. I feel bad for them. They are not playing well and it is not really a representation of how they played all season. They do deserve to make it further, but I don't feel like they will. I have not lost all hope. But its highly unlikely at this point.

In other news, my cousin (who's shower I went to 2 weeks ago) is in the hospital soon to be giving birth. She is not due until May 11th, but after her doctor appointment yesterday, they sent her to the hospital to get induced. Her blood pressure was really high and since she is so close to her due date they decided to get the baby out. For all I know, she might have had her by now. NO one calls me on this stuff. But my whole family is awaiting the arrival of baby Colbie!

And one last thing. I thought I would share with you all the full length studio recording of Memory, that is available to purchase on itunes. This version is so much better than what he sung on the show. It's worth a listen, I promise.

laugh if you must

My fellow dreadheads sent Jason Castro over 100 balloons yesterday. It took the florist 5 vans to deliver all of them. This is an actual photo of some of them [ETA:] that Jason actually took with his iPhone. We have a mole who is a real life friend of his. She helped coordinate the delivery people getting them to him.
Here is what she said yesterday when they were delivered:
"Jason has seen the balloons BLOWN AWAY He just keeps laughing and smiling and he is so amazed and HAPPY!! he says thank you thank you!! Funny thing is David Cook and David A had to help bring them all in because Jason had gone across the street."
How fun is that? I know this might seem so stupid to most people (like Chris, in particular), but I love it. I love that he has a fan base that can coordinate themselves to collect money from all over the country online and arrange to have 100+ balloons delivered. I guess its not really that difficult. But I like to hang out (even if its online) with people who would think to do something like that. That is something I would do and I love that I have met, thru American Idol, a group of like minded people. That's what I mean when I say it is good for my soul. It makes me happy and smile and brings me joy. Crazy to some, but bliss for me.

edited to add: WE MADE THE LA TIMES!!

and the LA Times article was picked up by online newspaper, The Huffington Post

and today (04/28/08), OK Magazine

today will be a good day, right?

The Suns will win tonite!!

and I will get a life by removing myself from the idol message boards long enough to go shopping. I managed to get to bed last night at a reasonable time, so that is positive. And I feel half way decent! Hooray! It sounds crazy, but this idol love is good for my soul.

two weeks from today & JULY!!!

So yesterday, I realized that in two weeks we will be leaving for Ohio. My youngest sister in law (Chris has two younger sisters) is graduating from college. Hooray for her!! I am happy about all that. But I am sorta dreading dealing with my out-laws in-laws. It is a nice, comfortable distance with them in OH and us in AZ. We haven't seen them since Christmas 2005. I am looking forward to being back in the 'Nati and going to see (and photo) all the places we used to live and go. I am also really looking forward to some chili. But that whole pesky in-law situation keeps me from being too excited.

Now about July... Why would I ever be excited about the hottest month of the year? Or is that August? Whatever. At that point, its all so hot it doesn't matter. I am excited for July because of how it will start and end.
July 1st - American Idol tour concert. I begged my mom to go with me, even though she does not watch the show. I didn't want to go alone and I knew that she would humor me.
July 30th - John Mayer concert. I have resigned myself to getting lawn seats. I gave up 5th row and was never able to find better than that. I figure if I am gonna go to both shows, I need to save a little money. The lawn is actually better for shows at this venue, because you have more room.

safe

What does it mean to be safe?
In the case of American Idol, apparently it means the media opens a whole can of whoop ass on you.
Since the wonderful results of last night, I was been floating. I was so happy. I really didn't care who left last night, as long as it was a girl. But I do think that Brooke should have left before Carly.
What I am referring to about this media is... Now that Carly is gone, they are all saying (and the judges have referred to this too) that the show has become a popularity contest, instead of a singing contest. To that, I say, "Why are they popular in the first place? Oh I don't know? Maybe because they can sing?" DUH! Sure, Jason was saved by his fans (including ME!). Again - DUH! What is this show for if not to develop a fan base for the contestants? I am at a totally loss at the whole "popularity" issue. Does the best singer always win on Idol? Really? It is who is the most popular, who can also sing well. They need to deal with the reality of this reality show!!

i can breathe again

No other idol spoilers than that.

Just know that I am a very happy girl right now!!!!!!!

wigging out

Seriously. This day cannot go fast enough.

If Jason gets kicked off Idol tonite, I think I might fall over dead.
Ok, yes. I am being over dramatic. I just pray that it doesn't happen.

At least I can follow the show on the forum, when it airs on the East Coast.
I don't think I could handle waiting until almost 9pm to find out.

I AM STRESSING BAD!!

It's gonna be like this until he goes... just a warning to the rest of you.

best of idol - top 6 (and... about last night)

I don't really feel like posting any videos today. Last night was an extremely difficult night for me, all around. Before I get into idol... the Suns lost. They are down 2 games to 0. It is very disheartening. Especially because they were ahead the whole first half. Yes, I know this is my idol review. But last night was so much more than idol. It started out all about idol and ended differently. I was so caught up in the show and the message boards that I didn't eat dinner. I took my pills, but didn't eat. Not a good combo. Well, I ate a few Pringles. But by the time I got some food around 9 o'clock (or better yet, Chris got me some food), I was feeling horrible and nauseous. I tried to eat, but couldn't. I went to bed feeling so sick. I feel better today. Not 100%, but way better.

So, lets just get this out of the way right now. Yes, Jason was struggling. But people, he is SICK. He has been sick for days. Couldn't you see him wiping his nose after his performance? He didn't want people to know he was sick and use it as an excuse. But if you have an excuse, that is a pretty valid one. He struggled in the low range of his voice and I agree that it was not the greatest song choice. (How cute was my boy? "I didn't know it was sung by a cat.") But he had the emotion and the soul that it takes to pull off that song. He gave it his all. I am just so confused with this week. Its like they set certain people up for failure. We all knew going in that David A and Syesha would rock this. They have those types of voices. But how can they say to other contestants that the songs didn't suit them when they knew all along they wouldn't? Chris even said, "What does Andrew Lloyd Webber have to do with finding a pop idol?" Good question, dear. Whatever on that topic! I know that Jason will be in the bottom this week. He better not go home (!!), but I am afraid the casual voter will go with the judges and not vote for him.

David A. - Where do I begin with this kid? How many times can a person forget their lyrics and still win American Idol? Apparently it will be at least 3. He did it again last night. This show is so biased it is not even funny any more. There is no subtlety left. They (producers, judges, etc) want a David A/David C finale and they are gonna say whatever they have to to make that happen. Even ignore the fact that messed up royally. I also need to applaud the director for panning away from him while he was humming he words instead of getting them right. This kid annoys me more and more every day.

David C. - He does have a nice voice. But all those close shots on his face were creeping me out. I had to look away. He is definitely safe again.

Syesha - Whatever. Standing on the piano, barefoot. I do have to give her credit for picking no so popular songs, because people don't associate them with other people and compare. She will be a great Broadway singer, just like they said. Not the American Idol...

Carly - Again with the messing up of the lyrics. But whatever. Apparently that doesn't matter at all. She covered it really well, unlike the rest of them. Unless you really knew the song, you probably wouldn't have noticed her mess up on the first chorus. She did a decent job. I am glad she sung Superstar instead of All I Ask of You.

Brooke - What do you say about that? I am glad that Paula called her out, but then Paula lost her back bone and they all back peddled. That annoys me more than not saying anything. She forget the words too. She made them stop the song and start over. WHAT THE?? This is the 2nd time she has done this too. She struggled thru the whole song and I felt like she had no emotion other than fear.

My bottom 3: Brooke White, David Archuleta and... (you know this kills me!!) Jason Castro - with Brooke going home.

happy earth day

and for my sister & sheepish...

who knew?

I wasn't planning on changing the colors, but I guess I just felt like it. In honor of Earth Day (04/22/08) and because it's hip to go green, I give you all my own - gone green. Hope you like it.

11:38am PST
edited to add: Trying out dots now. Not sure how I feel about them yet. Looking for feedback on the background. Does it annoy you? Or is it ok?

round 1

Playoff Schedule

Game 1 - Sat. April 19 - San Antonio - Noon PST - LOSS
Game 2 - Tue. April 22 - San Antonio - 6:30 p.m. PST - LOSS
Game 3 - Fri. April 25 - Phoenix - 7:30 p.m. PST - LOSS
Game 4 - Sun. April 27 - Phoenix - 12:30 p.m. PST
Game 5 - TBD - San Antonio
Game 6 - TBD - Phoenix
Game 7 - TBD - San Antonio

song in my head 04/18/08

New Deep by John Mayer
This is somebody's cheesy clip montage. But there was never a video made for this song.

tomorrow's goals

make up blood tests

new blood tests

haircut

mail sister's birthday present (her birthday is in 10 days!!)

get prepped for the NBA playoffs - GO SUNS!! Beat the Spurs.

try to stay sane