stuff and junk

The glucose test was basically painless. Took blood. Had to drink this sugar stuff. It was like flat orange soda with tons of sugar added. It made me sick, because it was sooo much sugar and I am not really eating much sugar anymore. Plus, I was fasting so it was on an empty stomach. After drinking the stuff, I had to sit in the waiting room for 2 hours. I had rented a movie and watched it on my ipod. Thank goodness I did that. I helped the time fly by. I watched P.S. I Love You. I was good, but super sappy. I had to stop myself from crying in public. So, after waiting 2 hours, they took my blood again and then that was it.

I weighed myself yesterday. Lost 5 more pounds. That means since February, I have lost 18 pounds. Not a lot, but slow and steady wins the race. I have more changed the way I eat. I still eat most of what I want, just much less of it. This weight loss also accomplished going below a major number. I am so happy to be below that number, it's not even funny.

Saw SATC the movie yesterday. Loved it. I said to my mom before it started, that I was gonna be bummed when it was over. She didn't understand. What I meant was that I will want more and I doubt there will ever be more. I loved that show so much and I never want it to end. I want to stay involved in these womens lives. I know they are not real, but you feel like they are. The movie was cute. It was surprisingly long. There were a few parts that dragged along, but it was worth seeing.

I AM KEEPING THE LAPTOP!!! I borrowed my dad's laptop for our trip to Cincinnati. I have been using it ever since. I love having it and never wanted to give it back. So yesterday, my dad said that we would sell it to us for a great deal. We could not pass up the opportunity to get a laptop at a great price, so we are buying it. I am so happy and so thankful to my dad for allowing us to buy it. YEAH!!!

The new NKOTB song is REALLY BAD! They sound good, but the song is sooo dumb.

The new hotness concert DVD, Where The Light Is: John Mayer Live In Los Angeles, comes out on July 1, 2008. (That will be an awesome day for me. JM DVD and Idol concert in the same day!!) Already pre-ordered it on amazon.

just for good measure...

song in my head 05/29/08

Bubbly by Colbie Caillat
I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

Nope. Doesn't make me think of anyone at all...

tomorrow...

Duh! Sex and the City opens tomorrow and heck yeah, I will be there. Tomorrow morning, I have a glucose tolerance test. It was ordered by the endo to see if I am pre-diabetic. That means I gotta fast. The test will take 2 hours. I have to go at 8:00am. I have a movie loaded into my ipod to watch, but I bet I will end up falling asleep. I have been up late every night this week and I am sooo tired. I even snooze between calls at work. Those pesky customers keep interrupting my nap time. So, after the test, the momma is coming over and we are going to the movie. I am looking forward to it. It has been a very strange week. I am glad its over. Now if I could just get some sleep... Oh right, I slept in until 12:30pm on Sunday! Yikes! hehe

um... hello there

the sleeve has grown on me... loving it now! Oh and did you know he had the 77 tattoo just for me? Or at least that's what I like to tell myself.
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edited to add: speaking of the hotness... MY TICKETS ARRIVED TODAY! woo hoo

www.rockwalllovesjason.com

edited to add:
how cute! His brother & sister were there at the parade.

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song in my head 05/26/08

Leavin' by Jesse McCartney
Let me take this moment to include my disclaimer - Just because the song is in my head, does not mean I like the song. It does not mean I dislike it, either. Songs just stick in my head and I have no control over it.

there are no words

song in my head 05/24/08

The Space Between by Dave Matthews Band

a cute baby. why not?

It's been a while since I have gotten any new photos of our friends baby... well, she's not really a baby so much anymore. She is 19 months old now. She is just too darn cute not to share... I am just so glad to see that she is happy.
Love this kid.
Scarlett Aurora, age 19 months

quick reminder

The American Idols are going to be on Larry King Live tonite and Monday! It's a 2-parter. Not sure who will be on which night, but watch (or record) them both, just in case.

"you don't feel any different, do you?"

That is what my sister asked me today. As of today, I have been taking the anti-depressants for one week. The doctor told me that it would take at least 4 weeks to get the full effect. I was never expecting a miracle cure. I know that I have to work thru my issues and that popping a pill won't do the trick. I think that I am in an ok place in my life right now (way better than I have been in the last couple months) and so I am not all that depressed. I think that I need to stick it out with the pills for awhile and see what they can really do. I feel like my emotional state is a roller coaster. And no, its not only PMS associated. I know the difference. The doctor basically forced me to prove to him that my depression is not only PMS associated. That made me a little mad. I go thru peaks and valleys, but they are not that easily explained. Anyway. I am still waiting, but not giving up hope.

this is nuts

As I write this, it is raining and 64 degrees outside. Why does this matter? Well, on Monday it was 110 degrees outside at almost this same time. This is the strangest weather change I think I have ever seen. I have lived in AZ almost my entire life and I don't ever remember a swing in weather like this. Now, I am not complaining. Don't get me wrong. I just don't get it. It's almost a tease. We were getting geared up for a long hot summer and the boom - cold and rainy. We all know the heat is coming, but this is a really nice break.

best of idol - finale - cookie takes it

A huge congratulations to David Cook. He deserves this. He is a great and humble guy with a lot of talent. He's got a fan in me. There is so much I could I say right now about the finale, but I really just want to leave it on a happy note.

Enjoy this... David Cook's first single, The Time of My Life

But did you really think I would have a post only about Cookie? Um, no. Somebody was looking mighty fine last night...

And somebody sung their ass off! This was his gift to the faithful dreadheads...

I will leave it with that, for now, because somebody leaves me speechless...

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

*jumping up and down in my chair*

HE'S GONNA SING HALLELUJAH!!!

I can hardly contain myself...

Whom ever wins is totally irrelevant to me right now.

woo hoo

edited to add:
JUST CUZ...

ignoring Idol

This is me, pretending to ignore Idol. Yes, I watched it. And tomorrow is gonna be super sweet. The top 10 will be there...

Anyway. That is not the purpose of this post.

This is all about new Alanis Morissette. The new album, Flavors Of Entanglement comes out June 10th. The new video for the first single, Underneath, is out. Check it out:

See, there is more to life than Jason Castro. Not much, but there is something...

i need a smile today...

Oh look. A gorgeous boy with smiles to spare!

idol itunes

Apparently, TBTB (the powers that be) are going to be taking the Idol songs off of itunes around the time of the finale. Before or after, I am not sure. But since that is only a couple of days away, I wanted to give a couple of recommendations. I have purchased all the Jason Castro performances, studio versions and videos, but I know that there are not many freaks like me out there. So, if you only wanted to purchase two songs from itunes, these are the ones I recommend buying:

Somewhere Over the Rainbow (studio version) by Jason Castro
Always Be My Baby (studio version) by David Cook

Yes, I did just recommend that you buy a David Cook song. No, I am not going crazy. Listen, I am as big a Jason Castro fan as you can find, but I am not dumb. I know good music. David Cook is a great singer. He deserves to win the show. His version of Always Be My Baby is amazing. I listen to it over and over. And Jason's cover of SOTR is beyond amazing. It is his personal favorite performance and it is the perfect example of what kind of a singer he is. (My other favorites are the studio versions of Fragile and Travelin Thru) So please, go purchase these two songs. Come on! It's $2.00. You can afford it.

song in my head 05/18/08

Not the Doctor (from Jagged Little Pill Acoustic) by Alanis Morissette

junk & tickets

So, the shrink went fine. It was the first ever visit, so I wasn't expecting much. We talked. Got some diagnosis based on said talking and got some drugs. I really wasn't going just to get drugs. The doctor even said that he is not a pill pusher, but he believes that anti-depressants will help. He believes that the pills will help with the depression and anxiety. He also said that what I was going thru in February was full on panic attacks. I figured as much, but hearing it from a doctor really helps. That has been the case with all the doctors I have been going to lately. The better I feel, the more I believe the doctors. It's not that I thought they were lying, I just still felt bad and no one could tell me why. It does really suck to realize that you can make yourself so sick like that. So, I got a prescription and made an appointment with the therapist. The shrink thinks I need to do both. I know that talking therapy (as the shrink called it) is really what I need, but the doctor believes I should do both in conjunction. He said that there is no way to find out if the pills will work until you try them. So, I am trying it all. I feel good about it. I am in a good place right now, but I go thru cycles. I need to work on things in my past while I am dealing on my own with the things in my present. And I have the therapist there for when I can't deal with the present. That might not make sense, but it's all I got right now...

Today was ticket day. The tickets to the American Idol tour went on sale this morning. There was a presale a few days ago, but they did not release very good seats for the presale. So I decided to wait to see what I could get when the tickets went on sale to the public. I got 15th row on the floor. That was really the best I could find. I went for it. I decided to go by myself. I had originally planned to drag my mom to the show with me, but I then decided that I really wanted to try to get seats as close as I could. I knew that my mom would not be thrilled to be on the floor among all the crazies. So, I decided to just go by myself. Plus, I might be meeting some forum people at the show just to say hey. I didn't want to put my mom thru all that mess either. I am ok with going by myself. I am always so caught up in the show and I tend to ignore the person I am with anyway. Speaking of that... Today, I also bought our lawn seats to the John Mayer concert. hehe. As my sister said, I dropped a boat load at ticketmaster today. But it is soooooo worth it.