medical update

So I would say that overall I am feeling better than I felt the whole month of February. I am still having random symptoms and pains. Last week I went back to my primary care doctor and told him and I know he thinks my symptoms are anxiety related, but I am not sure. I know that people with anxiety disorder frequently believe there are things medically wrong. I get this. But I still have things that feel medically wrong and they aren't going away. He said that he would gladly order more tests to rule more medical things out. So, I am scheduled for a EMG/NCV test, a spine x-ray and... a brain mri! The first test on Thursday and the other two on Friday. This is all because I still have pain in my shoulder, neck, left arm, left hand. Could be nerve issue. Could be MS. Yes, he mentioned ruling out multiple sclerosis. Seriously. I got what I wanted. I wanted to make 100% sure that nothing is really wrong with me. He ordered the tests. But all this is really freaking me out. I am still trying to trust my gut. My gut tells me that I am not alright. I trust the doctor, but just blaming it all on anxiety doesn't seem to work for me. Give me all the tests under the sun that show that nothing is wrong and then I will believe you. Until then, its more tests for me.

song in my head 03/30/08

Silent All These Years
by Tori Amos

why am i still up?

I actually am tired. I got up at a reasonable time and so I should be sleeping by now. But here I sit. Stuck in this chair on the damn computer.

What did we do tonite? We ordered chinese and watched The Boondock Saints. Have you seen this movie? I never have. Chris loves it and ordered the collectors addition with his birthday money. It came today from amazon, so we had to watch it. It is was surprisingly good. I thought it would be some stupid shot em up movie with a lame plot. It was a shot em up movie, but the plot was really good and it was actually quite funny. I was pleasantly surprised.

I guess I need to go try to sleep. Sleeping really hasn't been an issue lately. I haven't taken an Ambien in many weeks. I am really happy about that. I have no excuse for why I am still up now. I need to shut this down and move on to bed.
peace out.

earth hour

Tomorrow, my fair city is participating in Earth Hour.

Join thousands of people across Phoenix-and millions of people around the world-to make a bold statement about climate change on March 29th from 8 p.m. to 9 p.m.

Turn out your non-essential and non-emergency lights for one hour. Earth Hour.

I wish we were going to be home for this tomorrow. It would have been amazing to look outside and see downtown totally dark and then watch the lights come on again. Tomorrow night we are going to an awards dinner for Chris's company at Portland's. I hope they are planning on keeping the lights on. So since we will not be home, we will indirectly be participating. I think Earth Hour is a great thing if for no other reason than it gets people talking and thinking about conserving energy.

late night hotness

Am I mildly obsessing over Jason Castro? Yes. But he is just a talented kid.

Will he ever compare to this?
I think not.

Photoshoot for Best Life magazine. Here is the article and some other wonderful photos.

new sunglasses

I went to the eye doctor today for my annual check up. Hey! Finally some good news from a doctor. My eyes are in fine shape. My prescription on changed .25 in my right eye and she said it was enough to need new glasses. But I did need new sunglasses. The prescription ones I have now, I got in 2004. That was many prescriptions ago. I have trouble seeing with them now. So these are the new ones I ordered:
They are Coach. The round thing on the sides has interchangeable pieces. It comes with one with rhinestones or solid black. I should have them in about a week! woo hoo!

i'll send you the dollar

I swear I will.

Go to itunes and download the studio version of Fragile by Jason Castro from American Idol. It is sooo much better than his performance on the show this week. I keep playing it over and over.

prison break season 4 - just gets better & better!

Prison Break Stunner: Sarah Wayne Callies Returns!
Prison Break fans, prepare to seriously lose your heads.

Sarah Wayne Callies — whose rather ugly contract dispute with producers led to her apparent decapitation last October — is returning next season. Full-time. As Dr. Sara Tancredi. Head and all. Seriously.

She's coming back? She was dead. Head in a box. Dead. Guess not. That's awesome. Michael was so lost without her. Season 4 better kick ass.

super cute baby alert

Scarlett Aurora
Easter, 2008
age - 17 months
I love this kid and I haven't even met her!! I used to love that she looks so much like her daddy. It just makes me sad now, since her parents are separated. But she is still stinkin' cute!

12 months locked up!!!

T.I. Pleads Guilty to Weapons Charges

best of idol - top 10

David Cook


Syesha Mercado

I only picked Syesha, because I like to pick two favorites each week. I really like David Cook, but he keeps covering other musican's covers. This week, his version of Billie Jean is very similar to the cover Chris Cornell has done recently. This is the 3rd time he has done it this season. It's not a bad thing, but they give him props for being original. He is really good, but not original.
What is up with my boy Jason? I agree with the judges that he is being too safe. He needs to "blow them out of their socks" sometime very soon to stick around. He turned to big 2-1 yesterday! He gets cuter every week and I don't want him to leave.
And damn that Kristy Lee. She did save herself this week. She is not good, but who is gonna kick off the girl who sings the patriotic song?

My bottom 3: Chikezie, Ramiele Malubay and Carly Smithson (even though she sung my sister's favorite song!!) - with Ramiele going home.

9:37pm - edited to add: I will admit that when I first typed this post, I put Jason Castro in my bottom 3. But I felt bad that I wasn't being a good fan and changed it to Carly. If I had left it that way, I would have been 2 out of 3 again. I haven't been right about who is going home since I have been doing this. Chikezie needed to leave, so its no big deal. Jason was so cute when he said that he knew he would be in the bottom and thought about it all day.
This afternoon, I downloaded all of Jason's performances from itunes (yes, that whole thing about itunes on tonite's show was horrible!) and I have to say, his earlier stuff from top 24 was much better. He is really slacking the last couple weeks. He needs to get back on track. Hopefully a week in the bottom 3 will make him see that.
I fast forwarded thru Kimberly Locke. Was she any good? Doubt it.

how was your easter?

We didn't do a whole lot. My parents came over for dinner. We didn't want to go the traditional ham route, so Chris decided he wanted to my a bbq beef brisket. He has never cooked a brisket before, but he went all out. He smoked it. He used the propane grill and it took 10 hours. It was so tasty! He is such a good cook and we are so lucky he cooks for us. We just hung out, while Chris cooks. On Saturday night, I made a peach pie 90% from scratch. I just didn't make the crust. I used fresh peaches, not canned and it was really simple to make. It turned out very good and not too sweet; just the way you want it.
Yesterday was the 1 month anniversary of my uncle's death and my mom is still struggling with it. She was happy we got together yesterday, because it was a nice distraction.

wax on, wax off

On Friday, I finally did something that I have been wanting to do for a long time. I know I have shared before of my dislike of my random facial hair. Let's just say, I have less now. Ok, enough beating around the bush. (oooh, I didn't mean to make that joke!) I had my upper lip waxed. I was at the salon getting a pedicure and I decided that I really needed to just do it. I have needed to do it for a really long time. It really isn't that painful. The act of the waxing was nothing, but what hurt was the sting afterwards. And that didn't last long either. I have a couple red marks now, but you can't really tell that they are from waxing. I am really glad I did it.

THE BEST NEWS I'VE HEARD ALL DAY

‘Prison Break’ Season 4 Picked Up
The writer and co-executive producer confirmed on his myspace! I know that season 3 was lacking, but I pray that they do what they need to and come out blazing in season 4. No word on when it will start, but I am so happy about this.

blessings, peace and love to everyone

have a...

loving TV

There are so many shows that I love, besides American Idol. I thought I'd share the shows I am loving right now...

The First 48 - This is my favorite show on television. I love it so much. My favorites are the Phoenix episodes and the Cincinnati episodes. For obvious reasons. I like seeing crime in places I have lived or currently live.

Jon and Kate Plus 8 - This is such an awesome show. I love this family. Chris actually sat and watched the two new episodes on Monday. He stayed the whole time. That is a rare thing.

The Real Housewives of New York City - I have never watched the Orange County version, but I am loving these crazy NYC chics. They are so cliche!!

Make Me A Supermodel - This show actually isn't very good, but I am committed to it. Plus, Perry is from AZ and I think he needs to win.

America's Next Top Model - I have watched this show since the first "cycle." This is a staple for me. I love that they keep turning them out. There was only a few months between the last season and this one. My favorite from this cycle is Claire.

Top Chef - Another show I have watched since the beginning. We are only 2 episodes in to this season and my favorite is Stephanie.

Flip This House - Much better than Flip that House. My favorite flip teams are Armando & Than. Do you watch this show? Did you see episode 32? The one with the house that was burned and condemned. That house turned out amazing.

Good Eats - Another show that Chris and I watch together. I like learning about cooking even though I never apply what I learn.

Huh? I just realized that this is all non-sitcom/drama shows. Maybe that's because that is all that is on right now. But I did catch the first episode of Miss Guided and I have high hopes for it. I really like the writing and Judy Greer is awesome. My hope is that more people than just me like it and it sticks around longer than the last show she was on that I really loved, Love Monkey. There are two new episodes on tonight. Check them out.

happy 1st day of spring

best of idol - top 11

David Archuleta


David Cook
David Archuleta redeemed himself last night. He is clearly a ballad singer and not much more. But when he does ballads, he knocks them out of the park.
David Cook rocked again, but I will say that when I saw the mic with the voice box, I was very scared. And rightly so. That was really dumb and pointless. Otherwise, he is really entertaining.
The judges were right on about Jason Castro. He was not into that song at all. That boy can really sing and that did not display his talent at all. He's still my favorite, though. He is the only person I have voted for this season.

My bottom 3: Chikezie, Amanda Overmyer and Kristy Lee Cook - with Kristy going home.

03/20/08 - 6:44pm
edited to add: Again this week, I am 2 out of 3 on my bottom 3. Totally wrong on my guess to go home. Will Kristy ever leave? Who is voting for her? I never would have guessed that Amanda would have gone this soon. There was no way she was gonna win, but I thought she'd be in the top 10. Last week, I forgot to mention about the call-in questions. What the hell is that about? Just because Ryan is a DJ and can handle callers doesn't mean they should. The results shows are such a waste of time.

i really needed this today

Here is an alternate version of the Say video by John Mayer.
It's got no clips from The Bucket List, like the first video did.

On Friday, when I was out shopping, this song came on the shuffle on my ipod. I started crying. Crying so hard that I had to pull over in the Rustler's Rooste parking lot. I know I am slightly unstable right now, but the lyrics of this song are so important. I feel like there is so much loss and fear of loss in my life right now and saying what we need to say seems like something we really should do. Not just now, but always.