song in my head 02/28/09

Love Uncompromised by Jason Castro
Jason performed his original song on Idol Wrap on TV Guide channel last night. This is such a great song and its been in my head since last night!

busy, fun day

The plan for today was to purchase a wedding gift for a wedding we are going to next week. We also need to go grocery shopping. It all turned out to be wonderful. Our first stop was Crate & Barrel (for the gift, from the registry). We found a great gift, but also a few random things for ourselves. Chris got this and this. And I got this, in orange! I had to promise to get rid of some old mugs, but it was way worth it. Love it!! After our first stop, we decided to cruise down the side streets, instead of taking the freeway home. I said, "If we take this road, we can stop at the antique store." We used to live on that side of town and we were (and still are, for that matter) frequent customers at the antique store. For some reason, one of the few things that Chris and I really like to do together is antique shop. We usually are looking for specific things(we collect mid-20th century pottery and ashtrays) and so we have fun trying to spot things. It's enjoyable (as my mother would say). Man... I am using lots of ( ) today. So, we stopped at the store. And it really was worth it! Chris found a standing ashtray that was 60% off and came to only $18. What I found just about made me jump for joy. I found a vintage clutch purse that is the perfect color for the dress I am wearing to the wedding. I was not looking for a new bag. I was gonna use another one that didn't look really good. But when I found this one today, I was so excited. Its leather and large enough to hold everything I will need to take. It is really nice condition. Just a little cleaning needed. No rips or tears, even in the lining. It is perfect and it was only $9.00. Awesome. We didn't find anything else that we couldn't live without. I mean sure, if we had money to burn, we would have bought lots of stuff. After the antique store, we went to the grocery store. We got everything we need so that I can make birthday cupcakes for Chris (his birthday is Tuesday!). The best deal at the grocery store was Ben & Jerry's for $1.99. They are usually $4.49. I bought two of Banana Split and it was still less than one, not on sale. And to top it all off... as we were leaving the store, what do we see? A Girl Scout selling cookies! Score!! We left with 2 box of Thin Mints, that are now in my freezer. Super fun day and really nice to get out of the house. Lovely weather. A little warm for February, but still lovely.
*deep sigh*

trust me

Have you seen the new show Trust Me on TNT? I am watching it OnDemand, because I record too many shows already. But I like it. Weird reason why I started watching is because I had a weird dream about Eric McCormack & Tom Cavanagh. So I started watching it. And I will tell you, I love Tom Cavanagh. I have watched every show he's been in. Ed was cute, but my favorite was Love Monkey. I wish that show was never canceled. Loved it. And not just cuz Teddy Geiger was on it, but that helped. Anyway... I am getting into Trust Me.

12 out of 36 - round 2

Last week, my sister told me I was really cranky in my post. Too damn bad.

Let's rock and roll...
(adding the song the person sung this week)

Jasmine Murray - Love Song - Oversinging the hell out of this cute song. The best part of this song is the carefree nature of it. She tried to make it something its not. Sure the whole "make it your own" thing. Blah, blah, blah. She put too much into to it and didn't focus enough on showing off her voice.

What? No chaos in the red room with the families? Ah, that's too bad. That was the most entertaining part of last week.

Matt Giraud - Viva La Vida - yeah, no. People don't cover Coldplay for a reason. Too many cheesy runs. Paula talking about watching rehearsals. Interesting. As we learned last year, the often base their critiques on what they saw in rehearsal. They should not, but they do. Anyway...

Jeanine Vailes - This Love - What is wrong with these people? She is really bad. Song choice is killing these people tonight. Its sad when the only positive thing Paula, Simon and Randy can say is, "Great legs." Holy dove... end this misery!

Nick Mitchell - And I Am Telling You I'm Not Going - Already heard rumors of him being this years Sanjaya. Wondering who was Sanjaya last year. Highly entertaining and the scary thing is... he can actually sing. I would love for him to go thru just to show what a mockery this show is. "Takes one to know one!" Nice one. Shit. I just might vote for him.

Allison Iraheta - Alone - She only has braces on her bottom teeth and she does not look 16. I can't put my finger on what it is with her. She was doing really well, until she started yelling. I like her, but she needs to lose the costume. Just be herself. But definitely the best so far.

Kris Allen - Man in the Mirror - He is not bad. But again with the song choice. Too cheesy for my taste. Cute, but forgettable.

Megan Corkrey - Put Your Record On - She's really cute. She needs to grab the mike and get into it. She was just ok. But she has potential.

Its sad that the contestants didn't get Ryan's Cold Hearted Snake reference.

Matt Brietzke - If You Can Only See - SCARED OF THE DANCING. Goodness. I wasn't really looking at the screen, then looked over and saw him moving around. I guess its not really dancing, but still. It's weird. He actually has a good voice, but unfortunately he does not fit the mold. Sorry dude.

Jesse Langseth - Bette Davis Eyes - Dang. I liked her until she started singing. She's singing thru her nose and its obvious. It got better as the song went along. Either that or I got used to hearing her voice.

Kai Kalama - What Becomes of the Broken-hearted - He had a lot of gray hair before. Now, not so much. I guess he's the crazy hair guy this year. Whatever. I like his voice. But this does not feel like a song that represents him. He seems like a cool dude and this song doesn't show that. However, it does show off his voice. So there is the conflict. Funny... Kara said basically what I just said.

Mishavonna Henson - Drops of Jupiter - Yup. I'm shallow. She's not cute. But she did "make it her own." I don't really have any opinion on her singing. It was ok. But she will not make it.

Adam Lambert - Satisfaction - This is so damn intentional, its pathetic. Him going last. Just like Danny last week. All the little girls love this boy. He has the teen vote and that's a good vote to have. He's thru.

There you go. Round 2. Idol is torture, but I can't stop watching.

teeth!!

Ain't she the cutest thing??

borrowed this picture from my cousin's facebook and edited it a little.

2009 Oscars - best dressed

Notice a trend here? silver, white/offwhite, pink and blue/gray

2009 Oscars - on-the-fence dressed

Still can't decide if I like these or not...

2009 Oscars - worst dressed

mortality

I have been thinking about this a lot lately.

My mom told me that yesterday it was 25 years since my Gramps (her father) died. 25 years ago. I know I was little when it happened, but I never realized how young. I was 6 years old. My Nana (mom's mother) died before my Gramps did. It was a lot of death for a little kid.

Tomorrow it will be a year since my uncle (mom's brother) died.

My mother's sister is in the hospital right now with blood clots in her neck and superior vena cava (vein to the heart). She also has cancer and type 1 diabetes. She has been in and out of the hospital for over a year. She is not well.

All of these things, in addition to the death of my family, have caused me to question my own mortality. Death is a natural progression of life. If people didn't die, you would never appreciate them. But death means a change. And death is often a surprise. You are going about your life, then suddenly someone or something is gone. How do you get over that? Life as you knew it will never be the same.

Gosh... all this sounds so cliche. I don't really know what I am trying to say. Death sucks. Change sucks.

It's been a year since I started dealing with my issues. Anxiety. Depression. Physical problems. Started taking medication for all those things. Started therapy. Need it now, more than ever. I am better now then I was this time last year. Last year, I thought I was gonna die. I wanted to die. I know I will die. But now, I don't want that to happen so soon. I think I'd like to live a little more.

I have "life" tattooed on my right wrist to remind myself that I really do want to live. It's easy to fall into depression and convince yourself there are other options to living. But now I have a permanent reminder that life is better answer.

I will die. What's gonna happen before then? I have no idea.



sorry if this post made no sense...

hollywood's biggest day

Tomorrow (technically today) is the Academy Awards. A great day for me; an awards show junkie. This year, I thought that I wasn't gonna be able to see all the movies nominated for best picture, but I managed to get that done. I've seen all 5.

Frost/Nixon (or Frost/Slumdog as my sister referred to it today. hehehe)

The Reader

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Milk

Slumdog Millionaire

My pick for Best Picture: Slumdog Millionaire. It is not only the best movie of the year, but it is one of the best movies I have ever seen. It is definitely in my top 5 movies of all time.
I cannot wait for tomorrow night. I will not be blogging the show, because I just want to sit back and enjoy it. (But don't hold me to that. As I'm watching I might get snarky and feel like blogging it.) I can't wait for the red carpet either. The best of the best. Look for my best & worst dressed either tomorrow night or Monday morning. Woo Hoo!!

12 out of 36 - round 1 - results

Not blogging it... these results shows are a waste of air time.

IN: Alexis Grace, Michael Sarver, & Danny Gokey


good things: Tatiana did not make it and if there is a God, will not be a Wild Card either. Alexis was the best girl of the night. At least they got that one right.

bad things: Michael made it? WTF?? He was not good. He scares me. But America loves a hard workin' family man. This is sooooo not a singing competition. Anoop!!! What happened America? Please let him be the Wild Card.

12 out of 36 - round 1

Guess I am watching Idol the year. I wish I could deny it, but it just sucks you in. So tonight was the first group of 12. Gonna blog it as I watch it:

Jackie Tohn - What the holy heck was that? She's a nut job and she sounded so weird. Can't really explain it.

These couch interviews before and after bore the crap out of me.

Ricky Braddy - Is he singing, cuz i tuned it out? They liked it? huh. It was just boring to me.

Alexis Grace - cute baby. I actually kinda liked her performance. Got lipstick on the mike, then it transferred to her chin and her arm. hehe. Simon compared her to Kelly. That's crazy.

That's a fancy mike they gave em this year.

Brent Keith - the guy with 2 first names. Hicktown?? Just say no-town. Comparing him to Bucky is not a compliment.

Ryan in the Mister Rogers sweater is bothering me.

Stevie Wright - Nice try with the lower register, but no. Hell, all the other registers of her voice are bad too. How did she make it this far? Yotally sounds karaoke.

NPH is the crowd (and Ted Danson, but who cares) is the coolest thing. Ryan trying to talk to the families while the contestants come up is totally lame. Its chaos. And also makes the contestants look like children. "Here's my mommy and daddy." dumb

Anoop Desai - He is hilarious without trying to be funny, which is always a good thing. He's good and i actually agree with Paula that he sounded like Bryan McKnight. I hope he makes it thru, cuz he is one of the few i can handle watching.

Oh yeah... Where is the band? Are they hiding? Or are they using pre-recorded music?

Casey Carlson - Too sorority pretty and she is trying WAY too hard. Her mouth is freaking huge. Oh lord... This is killing me. Make it stop. *resists urge to fast forward* If she makes it, its based on looks only.

Michael Sarver - This is such a good song, but this dude scares me. I keep putting my hands up in front of my face in fear. *closes eyes* Nope, not any better without looking.

As much as i want to hate Simon... He's usually right.

Anne Marie Boskovich - Crazy when the judges ask them how they think they did. Not a good sign. I thought it wasn't terrible, but boring.

btw... All the top 24 (this year, top 36) Idols get their teeth whitened by the show. Just a random tidbit that I've acquired.

Stephen Fowler - I don't like his voice. It's nasally. He won't make it.

Is this show biased?? Duh. Saving Danny for the end is so damn obvious. And saving Tatiana for the end so that she gets booted is obvious too. I hate this show. They aren't even subtle anymore.

Tatiana Del Toro - Good lord, she's singing Whitney. Agree with Simon... better than expected. But she is still freaking crazy. Rubbing on Ryan's arm is so damn creepy. ick. If she stays, its for entertainment value. If she stays, shoot me.

Danny Gokey - Does it even matter what I think? He's gonna make it. Bet on that.

Listen. I run a fansite for a former Idol contestant. I have no room to judge anyone when it comes to Idol. I have a love/hate relationship when it comes to this show. It annoys the crap out of me, but it has brought so many wonderful things and people into my life. After last year, I swore I would never watch it again. But as I said, it sucks you in. But you have to take this show with a huge grain of salt. As long as you understand that its rigged beyond belief, you may be able to enjoy the show. Just don't be naive to think that your favorite contestant will make it thru, unless they are TPTB's favorite too. Don't jump on bandwagons, either. That's what they want you to do. [/soapbox]

congrats hotness

This is delayed due to my not feeling so well the last couple days, but its never too late to honor the hotness. The 2 Grammys he won brings his total to 7. Amazing. He deserves each and every one. And he is selfless enough to say that he believed one of his Grammys belongs to Jason Mraz. I know many people believe that John is a douchebag. I get that. He does not do much to make you think otherwise. But no matter what you think of him personally, you cannot deny his musical talent. And for the record, I don't think he's a douchebag at all.

Red Carpet-Palooza!



photo source

2009 Grammys - best dressed

2009 Grammys - worst dressed

The problem with the Grammys is that there are soooo many hot messes that it's hard to narrow it down to just a few. There really could be a million pictures included in this post. But, i tried to keep it to some of the worst.

I feel bad about including M.I.A. because I love her (Paper Planes is one of my favorite songs!!) and she is 9 months pregnant. But just because you are pregnant, does not mean you have to look like a clown.

song in my head 02/06/09

Chasing Pavements by Adele

devastation

It's taken me this long to feel like talking about it. When the Cardinals lost the Super Bowl, I was completely crushed. Wait, let me go back a little. During the game, I was on an emotional roller coaster. The worst was actually when they took the lead in the 4th quarter. I burst into tears, got up and ran and hid in the hallway. I kept asking Chris if it had really happened. He had to remind me to breathe. I cried thru a lot of the game. I was a wreck. When the game ended, I didn't cry. I was in shock. Some people thought I was crazy for being so emotionally involved. It's very hard for me to explain. I just love football and as I've said, been a Cardinals fan for so long. I was so proud and yet so sad. Then I got angry. I would go thru the game in my mind and saying, "Why didn't they do this and that."
Why did they try to run the ball in the first half against the best defense in the NFL?
Why did they not get into their passing game until the 4th quarter?
Where the hell was the defense other than near the end zone?
They killed themselves with all the damn penalties.
I really wish I could say that they did their best, but lost. But they didn't and that makes it very hard to swallow.
I will always will be a proud Cardinals fan. I just hate that they made it all the way to the Super Bowl and people still think it was fluke. Like they got lucky or something, instead of them being a good team. All they can do now is keep this team together and prove the skeptics wrong next year.
I am mostly ok now. This was just 20 years in the making for me and it was not the outcome I was hoping for.

are you ready for some...

This is it. Today is the day. I am so excited. I can tell you I will cry when the players are announced. This is our day. Our time. Our destiny. My childhood dream come true. Let's do this!