home alone

I didn't write about this while was happening because I figured it wasn't the smartest thing to do. But since its over for now...
On August 13th, Chris went out of town for work. He went to Arlington, VA and was there for two whole weeks. His company is working on the expansion project of Zayed University in Abu Dhabi, UAE. The project is based out of the Arlington office and they needed help working on it. So his company sent him out there with a couple other people from his office.
I was very lonely. I had to cook for myself and get myself out of bed every morning. It showed me how dependent I am on Chris. I was able to survive, but I like life much better when he is around. There is a very good chance that he will be going back to Arlington early next week, but he does not know for sure.
Craziness!

don't know how she does it

It seems that Alanis Morissette writes the songs that tell the story of me. I have loved her from the moment I first heard her. I can remember going to Best Buy with my mom and dad and buying Jagged Little Pill. I was opening it in the car and really wanting to listen to it right then. But these were the days of no cd players in cars. Yeah, that time really existed. So, when I got home I played it over and over and over and over and over. So many songs applied to me and how I felt about life at the time. Ever since then, with every album, there have been songs that feel like they came from my heart, not her. The biggest example is my favorite song of all time, That I Would Be Good. I often say, if you want to know me at all, listen to that song. That songs can explain me on almost every level. On the latest album, there are more songs that I feel this way about, but none more than Incomplete. I sort of feel like her and I are growing at the same time. She has gone thru so much more in her life than I have and she is 4 years older than I am, but I really feel like they way we experience life is very similar. This may sound totally nuts and I may not be explaining it enough for you to understand, but just listen to this song and you can know me more.

how do we feel?

Joe Biden. Not sure how I feel about the Obama/Biden ticket. I can tell you that I will not be voting for John McCain. That leaves me little options. But it will take me some time to feel comfortable with my vote.

operation pantz

So, the group on my forum decided we were going to get Jason another gift. We decided that it would be funny to buy him some pants, because his pants are a major thing. He wears tight pants and everyone has been obsessing over them from the very beginning of American Idol. And well, we are dirty birdies and really just want to get into Jason's pants. So, how better to get into his pants than to give him some. Anyway. That's what we did. We all pitched in and bought Diesel jeans & then had two "G"s embroidered on the inside of the fly. hehe. Here are the pants:
Are you asking yourself, "How did they know what size to buy?" Good question. Well, we simply asked his mother. She was in a chat with us one night and so we seized the opportunity and asked. We are crazy. We know!
The video that I already posted was when Jason was given the pants. Four of my friends were at the concert in Charlotte, NC and that was when he got them. Here are some pictures of him getting the pants:
As you can see from the video, he was really happy when he got them. Just to keep this post complete, I am posting the video again:

So, he loved them. Need more proof other than his smile in the video??? Well, he wore them after the show!!Need more proof? His mom told us that he called her and told her about them and that he "absolutely loved them." It was a major accomplishment for us. It was a group effort. Not only were we organized enough to make it happen, but we managed to keep it a secret. No other group had a clue that we were going to do this. And now, they are all very impressed! It is a huge deal to us. Crazy and nonsensical to many, but major for us.
So there you have it, the story of the pants.

i am shaken to the core

I cannot even begin to explain how upset I am about the loss of this amazing musician and human being. The death of celebrities is upsetting, but the members of DMB feel like family to me. I really am at a loss for words for a very different reason tonite. Please keep the band and his family in your prayers.

this was posted on the band's myspace:

LeRoi Moore 1961-2008

We are deeply saddened that LeRoi Moore, saxophonist and founding member of Dave Matthews Band, died unexpectedly Tuesday afternoon, August 19, 2008, at Hollywood Presbyterian Medical Center in Los Angeles from sudden complications stemming from his June ATV accident on his farm near Charlottesville, Virginia. LeRoi had recently returned to his Los Angeles home to begin an intensive physical rehabilitation program.

these lyrics are all i can manage right now

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

- Thunder by Boys Like Girls

i can't really speak right now

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just watch that and I'll explain when I can speak again...

omg

does not disappoint

Jason René Castro does date night in a robe.
And just when I thought he couldn't top last week (in his bunk!!) he goes and does it.
This boy could read me the phone book...

Oh hell, why not post last weeks too??

Is it humanly possible for him to be more adorable?

thought on the olympics

There is no way in hell that some of these Chinese female gymnasts are 16. The girl I just saw, looks about 12. It's just not possible and it's not fair.

chaos

Sometimes I think life likes to play games with you. Just when you think you are finally getting things together, it comes and knocks you off your feet. Or maybe off your pedestal. But I don't think I was on a pedestal and maybe that is why it is so upsetting. I was just starting to feel good about the direction of my life. Sure, there are major issues, but overall I was happy. Then one friend tells me one thing and BOOM! Life as you knew it is over. Who cares if I may be over dramatic. It's really how it felt. And if that's who I feel about it, it's how I feel. Can't deny it. There have been tears. There has been whining. I want to kick something. I am not dealing at all. I know I am being vague and that is because no one would understand. No one. You might think you would, but I promise you that you wouldn't. Most people would probably say that I am being stupid. In fact, that has already been told to me, but not in so many words. I don't care. I feel like I am gonna slip back into the depression that I had been in for months. Augh. I hate life sometimes. I wish I never started having a good life and then I would never feel like this again.

song in my head 08/14/08

Diamonds on the Inside by Ben Harper

fun with photoshop

seriously, could he be more beautiful?

and they said it wouldn't last...

and they were right.

Unlucky Jennifer Aniston dumped by rock star John Mayer.

That is a really pathetic headline. But it doesn't make me sad or anything.
One of my co-workers asked me how I felt about this and I said, "Well, it makes me happy. But I would be happier if he showed up on my doorstep and said that he left her to be with me."

current favorite pic

I love the profile and the lips and the curls.
So, I was told to bring it on... and I never back down from a challenge!

mavid

Alright, i will get caught up on what's going on soon enough. But in the mean time, I share with you Mavid.

I about died laughing at this and I even knew about it!
Poor Jason is probably cracking up at those fools!! I love it. The best part of the video: when Jason gets down with MJ 4:08 mark.

so, this blog thing...

I guess I have been neglecting this big time!
No real reason as to why. I have been busy and I guess what I am up to is not all that interesting to most people. My life is kind of niche-like. I could post a million things about Jason Castro, my website and John Mayer. But do you really want to read all that? Oh hell, I like to read about it and its my damn blog.

btw - i need to update my banner! that concert is long over.
edited to add: banner updated.